[You are so beautiful...
The way you smile is wonderful...]

Heero was walking alone on the street during midday, thinking about how he would adjust to life now that the war was over. He hadn't come much in contact with the others because he wasn't very social-like. He didn't want to bother their lives anyway, but he did want to see a special someone over at the huge circus tents up ahead.

Heero finally reached the circus and snuck in past the ticket booth. There wasn't much security and he did just want to see a little of the show. He made it in time, as the show was about to begin. The familiar figure jumped and flipped his way into the center circle. Heero's heart nearly skipped a beat. He had wanted to see him for so long. Trowa. He was clad in his regular costume and similar emotionless mask. But underneath that mask Heero could tell that Trowa seemed a little happier. He saw a glimpse of a smile as he watched Trowa take a girl by the hand; Catherine, the girl who seemed protective of him like a sister. But he felt his heart jump at that wonderful smile, and how beautiful he looked under the high lights.

Heero couldn't help but feel a little jealous as they walked together as the crowd cheered. Heero watched the act and barely flinched when he saw the knives fly at Trowa's head. He didn't like the way that girl threw those knives, toying with him, as the crowd cheered for more. He felt like he wanted to take Trowa and blow up the entire circus with all these people who thought someone in danger of getting killed would think of it as entertainment. But he thought it over and thought he should gain more of his humanity before trying to kill again.

The crowd roared with applause as Trowa and Catherine took their bows and left the ring. The people started to leave and Heero tried to keep Trowa in sight as he pushed his way through the crowd. He watched Trowa go into his trailer. Heero went to his trailer and peeked in and watched Trowa come out back into his regular clothes.

[I can see about the way you comb your hair...(beautiful hair)
And the really sexy kind of clothes you wear]

Heero watched Trowa pull a comb out of his back pocket and comb out his bangs gently with his nimble and graceful hands. He watched those long fingers run through those golden brown strands of hair. Heero smiled at the sight and realized that Trowa looked good in tight pants and turtlenecks. He wished he would be able to run his hands through those bangs, or to take in the way he smelled, and feel his warmth through the fabric that concealed his muscular frame.

He hid himself when Trowa came out of his trailer. He watched Trowa go over to the animal cages. He watched the mysterious way Trowa calmed the animals as he fed them, stroking them gently. Heero thought about being an animal himself, wanting those hands to touch him that way.

[Baby there ain't nothing you could ever go to make me feel wrong
All I ever wanted was a simple song to sing to you...]

Heero watched him and thought to himself, if he could get Trowa to love him...what would he tell him...? Heero looked back at Trowa and thought how much he really needed him, and how his desire for him just keep burning like logs being thrown into a passionate fire.

Heero watched Trowa the whole time, wanting to go up to him and tell him how he felt, in the way he really wanted to, and embrace him. Soon night fell, and he watched Trowa go into one of the circus tents and climb up to the high wire. Trowa sat on a small platform under an open space in the tent. His head tilted up as he gazed at the stars. As Heero watched him, he finally thought that he wanted to stay with Trowa, to be his one and only.

[Let me be the one to hold you when you need a heart,
Let me be the lips that kiss your mouth,
Let me be the thought that crosses your mind in the dark,
I don't want to see you cry when we're in love]

Heero came out from hiding and went to the ladder where Trowa had climbed up to the platform. He gazed up at Trowa. Trowa tilted his head down and spotted Heero down on the ground below. He slightly smiled at how Heero would always show up at anytime. He wondered why Heero would come and see him at this hour.

Trowa got up and began to walk across the tight rope, eyeing Heero playfully. Heero had a slightly puzzled look on his face as he followed Trowa on the ground beneath. He was wondering what Trowa was thinking, walking up there, with no fear of falling. Heero felt a bit of worry watching Trowa walk slowly across the wire. But he did put more trust in knowing that Trowa had experience of doing such an act.

Heero kept watching Trowa and thought how dangerously gorgeous the way he walked across the wire, his back straight, yet his head bent down a little, and those deep green eyes that watched him from above. Though both silent as they were, each knew what they meant by their actions. Heero smiled a little as he saw a sly smile form on Trowa's lips.

[Where you move just makes me feel real good
And the way you smile really puts me in the mood (I want you here now)
I don't want to be lonely tonight baby tell me it's all right
All I want is a simple chance to sing my song for you (let me be)]

The two smiled at each other for a mere moment then Trowa bowed and suddenly jumped and somersaulted off the tight rope and stretched out, falling from above. Heero's eyes widened and his heart jumped at the surprise and stood there, watching him fall faster down. Trowa came closer and he landed right in Heero's arms. Heero knew just a few seconds to outstretch his arms to catch his silent angel. Heero blinked in surprise at Trowa and Trowa smiled back and tilted his head back and laughed. Heero laughed also because of how worried he was in not putting in more trust in Trowa and himself. He didn't have to worry...now that he had what he had wanted right in his arms. Heero saw that tender glint of love in Trowa's eyes and knew right away that they both trusted each other.

[My love is higher than any mountain
Your love is deeper than any ocean (surrounding my heart with love)
As much as the sand on the beach you can't count them
Now that we really found each other all of nature has found it
Let me sing my melody]

Heero looked at Trowa and smiled and swung Trowa around and they both laughed. They looked at each other again and Heero brought Trowa close and they melted into a desired kiss. They both felt an electrified sensation as all senses were locked out and they felt and tasted a kiss that brought them into each other and feel their bond. Heero didn't want the kiss to end; it was if they were both in a paradise, for them to enjoy the rest of their lives in, like it was to last an eternity, and all they needed, was the life giving breaths of each other.

And after that brief moment, they released the kiss and gazed back at each other lovingly. Heero put Trowa down and Trowa took Heero's hand and led him to the ladder and they both went up to the platform that Trowa had sat on earlier. They sat close, shoulder to shoulder, and Trowa let out a contented sigh. Heero looked at Trowa and studied his handsome features; more beautiful than anything he had ever seen. Heero twined his arm around Trowa's and interlocked his fingers with his. Trowa looked at Heero and smiled, and they watched the stars, wondering if they would return out into space.

Trowa felt something deep inside, and tears formed at his eyes and one gently rolled down his cheek. Heero noticed this and wiped it away and kissed Trowa's cheek. Heero looked at Trowa; his face with a confused look, wondering why Trowa was crying. Trowa smiled at Heero and looked at him intently, how saintly he looked with his face of worry, not the cold tight face that he kept through battle. Without a word, Trowa's expression showed Heero that the tears he cried were not those of sorrow but the happiness he felt being with him.

Heero smiled and nodded as he understood this, and nuzzled Trowa's neck and breathed lightly into his ear, an action of comfort to how much he loved him, and that he would never want to see Trowa cry as they loved each other.

[Let me be the one to hold you when you need a heart (when you need a heart)
Let me be the lips that kiss your mouth (the only one that will)
Let me be the thought that crosses your mind in the dark (ever and ever to touch you)
I don't want to see you cry while we're in love.]

Catherine lightly tapped on the door of Trowa's trailer and noticed it the door was unlocked. Catherine took a peek inside and noticed that Trowa wasn't in. She felt a bit of worry and searched around the circus grounds; the animal cages, the other trailers, near the edge of the trees, and when there was no sight of him, Catherine went to the big tent. Catherine looked around then looked up, and saw two figures near the tight rope. She recognized one as Trowa, then she wondered who the other person was and then finally realized it was one of his friends. Catherine wanted to call out to Trowa, but then thought maybe she shouldn't bother them if they were sharing a moment with each other. Catherine understood this and smiled to herself. She quietly turned around and left, and didn't make an effort to look back.

[Let me be the one to hold you when you need a heart (let me be the one)
Let me be the lips that kiss your mouth (ever be able to touch you)
Let me be the thought that crosses your mind in the dark (the only one that will)
I don't want to see you cry while we're in love.]

In the morning, Trowa woke up and turned to look at the warm presence of Heero next to him. They both spent the night in Trowa's trailer and kept each other warm the whole night. Trowa kissed Heero on his brow and watched Heero's lips form a smile. Heero's eyes fluttered open and saw his silent angel smiling back at him. Heero reached out and touched Trowa's face gently. Trowa leaned his face into Heero's hand and then Heero ran his fingers through Trowa's hair. They both smiled at each other again then Trowa got up and put on his clothes and Heero got up and did the same. Heero then went up behind Trowa and put his arms around his waist. Trowa looked back over his shoulder and smiled and put his hands on Heero's arms on his waist.

A while later, Catherine came to check up on Trowa. Once again the door was unlocked and no one was in. But some of Trowa's things were gone, and a little note from Trowa, telling her he would be gone for a while would return soon, and not to worry about anything and to be sure to feed the lions. Catherine smiled at this then heard a truck outside. Catherine went out of Trowa's trailer and saw a truck leaving the circus grounds. Catherine knew it was Trowa and probably he had his friend with him too. She knew he'd be ok, and thought he wouldn't come back too soon. But she knew he would come back someday...

Trowa drove the truck and felt a hand on his lap. Trowa looked at Heero and smiled and Heero kissed his neck gently. Trowa felt the tickle of Heero's eyelashes against his cheek, and soft lips and strong but gentle hands touch him. A tear again escaped from Trowa's eye, and Heero saw this and kissed it away. Heero stroked Trowa's cheek with his fingers and Trowa looked at Heero then went back to driving. He veered over into a hidden cluster to trees that would hide the large truck well. Trowa stopped the truck then looked at Heero. Heero touched Trowa's face and held Heero's wrist. Heero took Trowa's hand and touched it to his own face and they looked at each other with such care and great love. Then Heero told Trowa the words that he longed to say...

[Let me be the one that holds you when you need a heart...
Let me be the lips that kiss your mouth...
Let me be the thought that crosses your mind in the dark...
I don't want to see you cry while we're in love...]